21.10.2018 Sensory overload
I struggle with crowds when I’m sober
I go between wanting attention
and wanting to disappear
All the while I am craving connection
I see everyone smile, having fun
And how I long to be with them
Enjoying our lives while we’re young
but no one is engaging
and I don’t feel like forcing it
I don’t feel like conforming by speaking to a guy just because he’s fit
And they talk abour art
in a self obsessed bubble
I’m already worn out
when I take another tumble
Someone is shouting
someone is talking too loud
and I just can’t stand the sound
I just can’t stand the sound
The light is too bright
and my bag is too heavy
and Im trying too hard to
convince myself I love it